Somedays, I so miss Judi. I had a day like that today, March 12. Big loss of confidence, fell into an ocean of self-doubt, felt like crying a rive of tears…just big melt down day.
Used to be I could have e-mailed Judi and eventually she’d reply and talk me off the cliff. In my heart, I know she’s still in my heart and her strength, common sense and conviction will always be with me.
Judi was such a dog lover! The second Romantic Times Booklovers Convention I attended was in Orlando. And at one of the large costume events, I created a character I knew she’d adore. I attended as the Fairy Dogmother…a character that looked after all dogs, good and bad. Rewarding those who treated dogs well and punishing those who were cruel.
My friend, Jane, and I walked to Judi’s hotel room to show off our costumes. And she laughed, and smiled and thought for sure I’d win a prize. (Nope, but it was still fun.)
I’ve thought a lot about that evening lately. And about a year ago, I came up with a story to write about that character. Not so silly, more contemporary, romantic and sliding slightly into the paranormal. Much like Judi’s Goddess books did.
On days like this, when I just feel low…I make notes about that book. I’m thinking this year, at my 5th RT, I’m gonna sit down with Judi’s former students and do some plotting work. If this book ever reaches the shelf…it will be for Judi.
Jane and I are bringing buttons to RT, to commemorate Judi. Her favorite saying was “Finish the damn book!”
Well, Judi, I will work on this book, for you, and I will finish it!